They come like wild flowers. I got used to solitude, I got used to my own skin.
Then you came out of nowhere, and you caressed me. Your hands touching my skin, this time. But you lied to my heart. With the soft strokes of your finger tips, you made me feel that I mattered, that I was enough. But you didn’t really want me. You just wanted to make me feel like you did, so you could feel good about yourself.
All of the wildflowers, are taking their toll on me. Instead of already feeling whole in my own solitude, I have come to yearn for that certain sweetness that you can’t have on your own.
You didn’t just come out of nowhere, you came out of this beautiful deep blue sky. Like the brightest star preparing for new life, you shot right down. You found me inside this beautiful and sometimes crazy world. You landed yourself and all of your light, on stable ground.
I am the dark moon. I am the light that trickles down from the sun.
I am the wind that moves mountains. I am the storm that can’t hold on.
I am the love that surronds us, the magic that is hidden.
I am the heartbeat, that you feel close to you, the one that is so close to your heart. The heart beat that still beats even when you’re not there.
I am the girl, that took you by surprise. The one that came out of no where. The girl that fell from the stars.
I am the girl, that will grab your hand and squeeze it tight. The girl that will make your dreams even dreamer, and your days so full of light.
I am the girl, that will come to you, bare and naked, open and whole.
I will rise you from your sleep, like the perfect sun waking up.
I will kiss you a thousand and one times. I will wrap my heart around you, and never want to let you go.
When we say goodbye I will cry a million tears. I will hold on to our memories and play them over my head, again and again.
I am the dark moon and you are the sun that lights me up.
Life wants to know what you are made of. It already knows who you are and what you need. But it wants to know more of what you ache for.
Life wants you to know what is inside of you. It wants you to realise that their is nothing you can’t face. It already knows that you’re already the fire. Now it needs you to know this.
That’s why life makes you ache sometimes, it breaks you down until you feel like their is nothing left. But their is my dear, underneath all the layers you have wrapped around yourself is a wholeness so pure, so full of love and magic.
This is life. Right here, right now.
That exchange between your coffee cup and your waiters hand. You have a moment and right away you feel that magic.
The sun touching you, at exactly the right spot, the very same spot it touched you yesterday.
Nothing else matters, but right here, right now.
Life is just way too precious, to be anything else. Anything but magic, when moments so light, so full of joy or in that moment of clarity and so much peace.
It’s all okay, because you are worth the wait. I still need a little bit more time to find myself.
My longings, are my own. This is the place that I have had to come to.
This place, where I no longer need to desire or yearn or even crave. This place right here, where all that I need to feel, I already do within every part of me.
I will get to that place, when I’m dancing. That sweet, sweet place where you will see me fly.
I had forgotten how good a coffee tasted. I had forgotten how good the world tasted.
So I gave myself the permission to stop just that little bit more.
I realised that it’s okay to tell myself that it’s the clouds that are really moving, and not the sky.
I realised that it was okay to talk to a stranger, to talk to a dog as if it were a person.
That just to feel the warmth of the sun touching my back is enough.
I realised that it was okay to enjoy the rain, that it not only cleanses the earth but it cleanses me too.
I realised, the sun and the rain can wake us up, if we just let it.