The wind whispers, ‘it’s going to be alright’. Life holds me like the stars holds its stars. Strangers bring me their light, smiles like golden hours. They fill me up and carry me.

But when I allow myself to be completely alone, I feel an emptiness. The scars deep inside, I can feel every inch of them. I taste the blood inside my tears. And their is no one to carry me, to hold me. I wonder is it because I don’t need anyone? Or is it because I have been forgotten about?

But maybe it is meant to happen, when I’m grey and old. When I have exhausted every strength, lived every ‘me’ time to its fullness. And the wind will whisper to me, ‘he has arrived.’

Xo

They come like wild flowers. I got used to solitude, I got used to my own skin.

Then you came out of nowhere, and you caressed me. Your hands touching my skin, this time. But you lied to my heart. With the soft strokes of your finger tips, you made me feel that I mattered, that I was enough. But you didn’t really want me. You just wanted to make me feel like you did, so you could feel good about yourself. 

All of the wildflowers, are taking their toll on me. Instead of already feeling whole in my own solitude, I have come to yearn for that certain sweetness that you can’t have on your own.

Xo

I am…

I am the dark moon. I am the light that trickles down from the sun.

I am the wind that moves mountains. I am the storm that can’t hold on. 

I am the love that surronds us, the magic that is hidden.

I am the heartbeat, that you feel close to you, the one that is so close to your heart. The heart beat that still beats even when you’re not there.

I am the girl, that took you by surprise. The one that came out of no where. The girl that fell from the stars.

I am the girl, that will grab your hand and squeeze it tight. The girl that will make your dreams even dreamer, and your days so full of light.

I am the girl, that will come to you, bare and naked, open and whole.

I will rise you from your sleep, like the perfect sun waking up.

I will kiss you a thousand and one times. I will wrap my heart around you, and never want to let you go.

When we say goodbye I will cry a million tears. I will hold on to our memories and play them over my head, again and again.

I am the dark moon and you are the sun that lights me up.

Xo

Life wants you to know…

Life wants to know what you are made of. It already knows who you are and what you need. But it wants to know more of what you ache for.

Life wants you to know what is inside of you. It wants you to realise that their is nothing you can’t face. It already knows that you’re already the fire. Now it needs you to know this.

That’s why life makes you ache sometimes, it breaks you down until you feel like their is nothing left. But their is my dear, underneath all the layers you have wrapped around yourself  is a wholeness so pure, so full of love and magic.

Xo